New Years Resolutions

I made a couple New Year's resolutions this year, which I intend on keeping to the best of my ability. They're general, and focus more on mindsets that specific goals. They're also pretty cliche.

1. Get out of the habit of floating through life, and start staying on the beat.
2. Be the best me that I can be.

Let me elaborate a little. Maybe every couple weeks or so, I'll have random bursts of proactive energy where I'll get done everything that I needed and planned to do and feel super inspired and motivated and shit, and this lasts like 30 minutes. The rest of the time, I just kinda focus on getting through the next hour. I let life happen to me, instead of being the one to make things happen. I want to be aware of each hour passing, instead of just waiting for it to pass. This is the mindset I want to retain for the new year.

To be "the best me that I can be" is something everybody says, but kinda means nothing. What I mean by this is to live up to my potential, to be 100% Camille all the time. That probably still makes little sense. It goes along with the "floating through life" mentality I've got in the habit of. Once my brain realized how easy it was to not care about my appearance, not focus on my outfits, never wash my face, never sleep on time, and never participate, I stopped putting in the effort. However this little bit of effort put in to self-care gives me more energy and positivity throughout the day, I've learned. So really, my actions to achieve this goal will be to take care of myself, for the purpose of achieving the broader goal of being the best me that I can be. Actually, now that I'm thinking about it, I'm going to rephrase my New Year's resolutions into two steps to reach my ultimate goal. I have a vision for myself, that I know I can become, but will need practice, hard work and patience.

Goal: To Be The Best Me That I Can Be.

Resolutions to achieve said goal:

• Take care of myself
• Keep a productive, future-oriented mindset